Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Maybe We're the Ones Who Have to Prove Ourselves to Him

Peter: You've seen him. I wish he'd just given me some sort of proof.

Lucy: Maybe we're the ones that need to prove ourselves to him.

~The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian

My Dearest Friends,

I've decided to do a bit of "Testimonyizing" Today, mostly because of what has occurred on this rainy Tuesday morning.

To start off, I'll go back to the beginning. You could say I've been a Christian all my life. I was born into a Christian family and went to church for the first time when I was about three days old. I then went to a little Christian school up until tenth grade, when I was homeschooled. But that's beside the point. I "Got saved" when I was six. I repeated the preacher's prayer in Chapel one day. And looking back, maybe I did get saved that day, because I've known and loved Jesus Christ ever since. But when I was ten I was going through some troubles with a friend, Fighting back and forth. My teacher at the time was also a pastor on the weekends, (Christian school and all) So I decided the best thing to do would be to "Get saved" So once again I said a prayer, and went around to all my old teachers telling them what I had done. Needless to say my friend troubles didn't get better.

But once again, that's beside the point. Even though I graduated last spring, I started getting in with my Church youth at Christmas. Somewhere between being around them, and our Sunday school teacher, and going on some youth trips, I truly got saved. I'm not sure when or how, but my relationship with Christ has become so great and powerful since then.

I'm still working on it, I assure you. Like any other Teenager, reading my Bible has been just about the last thing on my mind. I've always said "If he has something to say he's powerful enough to tell me some other way" But truly, I think I just didn't know where to start.

Now here's where my Narnia Quote comes in. Sunday, our Teacher decided to give us a challenge. Read your Bible. Three minutes a day. Choose a verse. or two. "You spend more time than that on the computer every night," he said. He told us to get up a little earlier, go to bed a little later, but choose some time every day to read.

Well as I sat in service later that morning, I was flipping through our "Lifeway" Sunday school book and found that it has little "Daily readings" in the back. Excited, I showed it around. And I fully intended to do it, And text or call everyone when I did (since our teacher told us to be each other's accountability partners.)

Now, here's where the bad teenage Meggie comes in. Yesterday (Monday) Mom and I had some errands to run. I sat out in the garden, mindlessly pulling little weeds, until about noon, when we set off. We had to go to Wal-mart to get a new phone card, for our Straight talk, unlimited...er.... phone.. We had a great time, stopped by the library so I could talk to you wonderful people a little. I got some new books, and home we came. We got in not fifteen minutes before my dad came in from work. So we ate supper and gathered around the TV as usual.

I was excited, because one of the books I got was full of beautiful Victorian home floor plans. Now, I've had a spot planned out for my future home for years (My family has twenty some odd acres...) And this house would just fit, add a few rooms, take away others, And now I'm decorating my new non-existent home... And putting my non-existent husband and kids in it and planning a life and.... and.... and... Dreaming is what I was doing.

Well this morning I got up and the first words mom said were, "Did you put the new minutes into the phone." One word (And excuse me but this one called for it)


So I rushed down, grabbed the card, dialed the number.... aaaand.... It wouldn't go through. The phone had already been cut off. So I went down to borrow our neighbor's (aka Dad's employee... the boys' dad) phone, Called the number and selected "Add minutes/ air time" Instead of "Activate or reactivate" So even now I'm not sure if it worked and we have a phone. So I'm upset and crying by this point, And mom's trying to appease with promises of "Well we'll just get another card" and "We'll call Wal-mart" (You know how mothers do)

But nothing worked. I still felt miserable. So to block it out I picked up the book I'm reading, Which just so happens to be "A Daily Rate" By Christian author "Grace Livingston Hill" In this book a girl and her aunt take over a basically third class boarding house and are making it over with a good scrubbing and the Love of Jesus Christ. Well I've just passed a point where Celia, The main character has asked one of the girls living there to join her "Bible band" And read a verse every day. (Ironic right) Not until I read that Mamie (The other girl) Sits up and cries "Lands alive How could I forget on the first night!"

Once again... I nearly started bawling...

No wonder I forgot the phone card! How could I remember something that big when I can't even remember to simply read-God's-word.

So, needless to say I picked it up immediately. The verses were in second Corinthians 5. Verses 5- 15 was yesterdays and today's.

I still can't believe I forgot.

But now my eyes are open and I pray I never will again!

I find my eyes being opened a lot lately. Being new to a full relationship with Christ, things become very obvious to me. "Why believe?" Some say, "Because it's so much easier to let go of worries and let Him have them", I reply.

How do you know he exists? Look above. God has just given me a huge lesson in responsibility and I KNOW who gave it to me. Same as when I have a song or a word on my heart and am unable to sing it or say it, and someone else does. (That happens a lot!)

The how and the why are simply revealed to me as I go along. I've always known, but knowing and understanding are two different things.

Now I understand.

Comments greatly appreciated


PS, I wrote this right after it happened, I now know the phone is on and working. :D


Lady Helen Mar said...

I know how you feel. I have been saved since I was five but I never had that deep relationship until tenth grade. I am now two years out of high school and still learning. Reading my Bible has been a big learning experience for me too. Keep trusting, dear!
Glad to hear you got your phone working too!

Elinor Dashwood said...

How wonderful it was to read your testimony and how the Lord has been working in your life lately, Meggie! I was very blessed. May the Lord continue to grow and encourage you in your walk with Him.

To Him be the glory!

Your sister in Christ,
Melanie/a.k.a. Elinor Dashwood

Lady Weaver said...

Yerg... not cool (but the testimony is).

Speaking of phones, I need to talk to you! You, me, May 14th, Gatlinburg. BE THERE in Vintage Megara.

~Miss Zara~ said...

do you want to be penpals
please let me know

Avonlea_dreamer said...


And thanks everyone for your encouragement! I love hearing about you too!!!